Letters for sanity

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These are being written to the expense of everyone else’s impunity. I was never granted my own impunity. So why should they be granted their impunity? It is pathetic that I was never allowed to fight back. Like the autism aware fighting back is somehow the end of the world. Let’s see why they all thought that way. My truths are in their lies by omission.

When Tracy Carpenter told me to do this? She told me to throw out the letters after I was done. Well F**** that ! Not all anger has it’s place in the trash bin. I am still being isolated from most of my family. They are still blaming me or taking space against their own best interest. Well it is a Union of Websites for a reason. If you don’t play fair with me. I will pick up my megaphone and speak up about our crap.

You need to look in to your drug addiction more critically as well bro.
I don’t have much more to say to Matthew Clarke than this. I have declared harms against you. The Police have determined we are better of just giving each other space. I am inclined to agree. Matthew Clarke triggers Psychotic disorders on a consistent basis. He also falls for every single chance to confront me on behalf of his mother. Just look out after yourself doofus because well you aren’t allowed to contact me.

Ben Shapiro is gay.

This really isn’t funny to me anymore and I am through being tolerant and politically correct about this idiot. Why does anyone care so much as Ben Shapiro does about a man wearing a dress? He is a repressed Conservative gay man with a daddy fetish. Western Civilization doesn’t fall because men embrace femininity. That is absurd. Right now toxic masculinity in Western society is at genocidal levels. Give it a break!

About Ben Shapiro being gay? : Listen to how Ben Shapiro talks, listen to the gay panic & listen to the senseless points being made. He is a repressed gay man preaching toxic masculinity and that is all it comes down to.

Feminizing men is not the end of the world!

In regards to me. I have an aggressive personality disorder. I try to take Estrogen to balance it out! You don’t want me fully masculinized. It is a danger to people I love and society as a whole.

Ben Shapiro buddy. Someone like me has an aggressive personality disorder called Psychosis. Feminizing me so I am more in touch with my emotions is better for me, it is better for society & it is better for whoever I end up with. The Fascists thought making all men in to brutes was a good idea to. Except it wasn’t… Even in straight relationships women need men who can equally share in the emotional caretaker roles.

For god sakes! Feminine men, queers born males & Transwomen are essential

It is a genocidal level evil to the gay community to remove our feminine people. They are often are caretakers, our creatives & are stay at home spouses. Gender is a wide spectrum. Who cares about the feminization of men? If it brings down the sexual assaults, if it brings down the suicides & it creates mentally healthier people. I say we embrace feminized men. The Indigenous people had their dual spirited persons. You know what also? I dated a dual Spirit person. They were strong, beautiful and a little dangerous for me.

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I am nobody’s secret!

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One of the things I have been doing is teaching that psychosis colors my understanding of my family. I wanted to add a fact to this. The fact that my family is a manipulation culture also needs to be factored in to my information releases. It also needs to be factored in to all future relationships & legal engagements.

Yes Psychosis still colors my understanding of things time to time. Unfortunately Kaylib Drury & Casey Lee found this out the hard way. However, I also want to factor in the abuse of a family that lies to someone trying to keep a grip on reality. I am nobody’s secret and this is an abuse!

You have 2 choices with me. 1. You can withhold information. 2. You can give accurate information. I am not responsible for your public boundaries. Let me be very clear here! The secrecy of my treatment as a person with autism was being manipulated by Shane Fraiser in 2011 to hide my sexual abuse! It was then manipulated by Kimberly Hill Richardson to create a quiet home environment without checks & balances for the abuse she put me through! I Yield my time f*** you to my family! I am nobody’s secret and I have a public profile to prove it!


A Job I’ve done well as an Autistic Person.

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A job where I felt proud of myself, happy and genuinely fulfilled in my lifetime was 10 Fitness in Quinte West. However, I did receive special accommodation from my Dad with shelter, transportation & assistance in Socializing. During this time I started dating Kaylib Drury. I was training in MMA. It was genuinely one of the happiest times in my life. Although since the concussion I don’t feel comfortable working right now. I intend to go back to 10 Fitness as a customer after the Pandemic Lockdown eases. I pray for this Gym’s survival as it is an asset to our communities.

I think when I am feeling depressed? I need to reflect back on working for this gym. This was a time in my life where I was able to ignore the torment of my Step Brother Matt Clarke with ease. This was a time when Kaylib & I were in an exciting new relationship. This was a time where I started to believe anything was possible for my life.


Quinte West declares baby mama by Starrkeisha their new Anthem

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In an effort to actualize who the people of Quinte West really are Quinte West declares baby mama by Starrkeisha their new Anthem. It will play at the High Schools instead of the National Anthem & before they start all the Sex education classes.

In response to this a Quinte West resident said “Why not just give up? ”

I am Ashton De Roy and the Pandemic has driven me insane.


I am directionless.

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Where do you want to be in 5 years? I don’t know! I deserve to be able to say that & maybe if the pre-requisite for counselling is that you need to assemble a 5 year plan. Maybe I don’t need counselling. I don’t want a goal, I don’t want a destination & I don’t want success. I don’t need to make people proud, I don’t need to make people like me & I don’t need to meet expectations. I don’t want to work, I don’t want to love & I don’t want to care. If something comes along for me? Maybe I will care suddenly but I am not fighting for anything right now. I am not crying over losses anymore. I simply do not care.

This is all directionless. This blog is directionless, my content is directionless & my life is directionless. That is okay. The only people who don’t think being directionless is okay are the over ambitious psychotics that run the economy. This will do nothing to change me, my family & my career track.

This will not change myself totally because then people think they just need to fix me. You don’t need to fix me… There is nothing that can be fixed. We only fix things artificially anyways! For example I tell my ex boyfriend Kaylib Drury how he has improved my mental health so much since we got together. It isn’t true… It is a lie we tell so that someone will accept us and we can experience love.

This will not change my family. Matthew Clarke may for example think a little deeper about being a Police calling b**** in regards to his sister. He will not change. He will just feel more righteous indignation. I am okay with that. I am also okay that my father continuously thinks I can work and strive for independence. I can’t and every time I try I nearly get killed but it is a magical thought.

I have no career track. I am just going through the motions of a start & stop work life. There is nothing there at the end of the day. Speaking of people with an obsession with your five year plan. Employers are obsessed with asking “Where do you see yourself in 5 years?” I want to reply, “Preparing for the apocalypse!” What makes you think I can be so secure that I plan for 5 years?

As a reader some want me to change. Yet I will never change who I am. As a reader you think I will either come to an actualization or change my family. That will never happen either. As a friend or someone else you think I will start taking my career track with more determination and success. I will not! I dare you all to f*** off well I remain directionless.

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This tragedy means, I am done fighting with my family.

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When your family house catches fire? It may be literally time to start apologizing and making amends where you can. Time to rebuild and stop being a self-centered narcissist. Progress is not define by the ability of being able to march on with a maintained cruelty.

I am sorry to Uncle Rick for blocking him out with a God Complex. I am even more Sorry Uncle Rick lost his cat babies in the fire. I am sorry to Grandma Pat for not wanting to see her after I stayed with Kaylib Drury.

Honestly this Covid19 Pandemic has been a tireless breakdown of the entire family’s sanity.

I will do what I can to make repairs where I can. Except with Matthew Clarke….

He needs to take responsibility for hurting someone first in a big way. Once he does that. Then I will be able to make amends with him. His impunity is only for him… It has nothing to do with me! It is a selfish gift he gave himself like me giving myself a God Complex. It isn’t meant to be take away all of our responsibilities & harm. It just gratifies us individually.

I am signing off this blog saying. There is a THC beverage in the fridge I am not rushing to drinking because I am alone & lonely. I think that is how I should be. I should let that sit in.


Dear Gary Hall. I am in love with another….

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I had the briefest crush on Gary Hall in High School. I didn’t anticipate him attempting to jump my bone in the middle of an Undue Hardship issue! An issue where Kaylib Drury magically disappeared. No something has been wrong this entire time I have been talking to him.

He is trying to convince me everything boils down to neglect while trying to coax me to meeting in person. I don’t want to do that Gary Hall. You are weird and kind of Gross. The guy on GrindR with the Amish beard this morning had more of a chance than you.

You waited until I was at my lowest point to reveal hidden feelings. Then acted like you were my Special Ed Savior. This where I reveal my true love, my one and only. What I intend to spend the rest of my life with?

Are you ready?

They are a babe!

I am so in love.

Sooooo SEXY, What a babe? ūüėČ

Ashton De Roy is Drunk again. Alcoholism gets the best of most of us.

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Anti-Fascist = Bully & Victim

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Now that I am done with another experiment of getting drunk on equality & blaming my parents for everything. Time to switch to the Anti-Fascist side of my personality as a Wiccan. I am not just a victim nor am I just a bully. I am both. How you can tell my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder has been treated? I am a god complex mother F*ckers! There is no cure for me.

Empathy is “empathy as the ability to sense other people’s emotion.” I have it to some degree. To not have empathy is to be a ruthless lunatic. I feel bad about the emotional burden I have put on people.

What keeps me awake at night empathy wise?

  1. Dad & Tracy’s collection of codependent f*cktard kids. Like me to be honest. I am not exempt from blame.
  2. I am kept up by Kaylib Drury thinking I didn’t care about him. I actually did. It isn’t fair to judge someone by their actions fresh after a concussion. However I always cared about Kaylib. I will always care about Kaylib Drury. Hence why I am? Not granting him the right to be forgotten.
  3. Me Monopolizing time, resources and everyone’s truth. Everyone does this. It doesn’t make it any less bad. I just got done a conversation with my old friend Felix. All it was, is us monopolizing each other’s truths until we wore ourselves out. “Felix buddy, you need to leave the Psychology cult!” Socialphobia is a insecure attachment disorder. It plain & simple comes from Disability abuse. Once again your family is hoping the cure comes externally and it never will.

I understand I do bad things to. I understand I am not perfect. I just don’t care! I don’t care if it destroys my relationships. I don’t care if I hurt myself. I don’t care that my emotional instability effects other people. I am not having kids, I am not in a loving relationship & I am not capable of working without supports. The bitterness you are experiencing is normal & to be expected.

“Someone with 0 stakes in the game. Has nothing to lose. Not saying I am invincible. Invincible would be an inaccurate statement to someone obsessed with their own self-destruction.”


Parental Report card. F is for go F*ck yourself

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People have wanted to hear me complain about my parents. This is all I have in the tank. I don’t actually care to overly get in to it. How I was high risk for sexual assault? It happened with my Second Cousin/Step Brother. How I was considered high risk for abuse because of Mom’s Economic struggle & codependence problems? Maybe it was her Dad issues. Mom never met a man in the drunk tank she didn’t like.

Kyle Deroy you sad son of a b****! You only just realized now we were the victims of extremely psychotic OCD Parenting? Our family is a manipulation culture. You give them an inch and they take a mile. They exhibit compulsive lying, overly inappropriate attempts at controlling each other & the classic signs of a rape culture. Here is an article of our cousin getting killed by his girlfriend to prove the point.

It all sounds hilarious, but the Psychotic disorder is real! ūüôā Am I still mad at my parents? No not really. I’ve put Matthew Clarke in a Dystopic reality where if he calls the Police on his Psychosis suffering sister. He could be the one charged. I proved he shows an abusive pattern based on Psychotherapy skills I inherited from Special Ed. I’ve taught feminism to other Special Eds & Self-defense to others. I give 0 F*CKS. I mean there is an extremely likely chance I kill myself one day suffering with traumatic flashbacks, but I am trying my hardest not to! ūüėÄ I still love my parents. I just don’t function right at all. I am missing consistency, my motivations for actions are mostly screwing with people & some nights I need to do 1 hour of kickboxing exercises to deal with violent urges.


Manipulation & Social gamesmanship is my only culture.

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There is nothing else here… My parents didn’t select a morality when I was a kid. Just Obsessive Compulsive Abuse on both sides! I was denied conventional Autism therapies in the home (Which automatically makes everywhere I lived abusive.) There is nothing else here!

I annoy people, I play tricks & I create uncomfortable situations!

I chose the image of Kaylib hiding his face because I have to tell him the facts. The facts are Psychology has been explicitly used in my mental health abuse. The fact is you contributed to an unhealthy pattern of cyclical manipulative abuse when you turned to my father. I wasn’t the one who ended my relationship with Kaylib, but if I were to choose something I wouldn’t forgive him for ever. It would be controlling my psychology without permission or what I described to the Police officer as “Rape”. Stop raping personal psychologies Kaylib! It is none of your concern how your boyfriend, mother & etc handle their mental health.

I have a serious problem & a lack of identity. All there is at the end of the day here is… The Addict, A Wiccan & the antagonistic Psychotic. Stop looking for depth. I won’t give you any!


The shortfall of One sided agreements.

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“You have to let me kill myself if I think my time is up.” An actual chilling sentence I have told 2 ex-boyfriends. This was a 1 sided agreement.

It took me a while to realize. People who love you? No matter how flawed they are will never agree to this.

I’m Ashton De Roy and I had planned to be dead right now. How did I get here? June 7th 2020 I got a concussion at Giant Tiger. From there my life had spiraled out of control and I was put in to Safe Beds & then homeless.

Why did I want to die? Multiple attempts at failed independence, a family culture I am irrelevant to & another ex turning to my family for psychological assistance… I have my own therapies that I self-manage. Not their selected therapies!

Failed independence is a tricky topic. Since I was 14 years old it is like my family put a gun to my head to get into gear. In fact Melissa Deroy my Dad’s ex wife and my second cousin did just this. When they acted surprised when I lashed out at 27? (Editted for mellodrama.) Consider the fact, “YOU metaphorically PUT THE GUN TO MY HEAD PRESSURE WISE!” Now I have to metaphorically turn the gun around. This was highlighted by a seizure disorder I on some level believe was kept from me &the psychotic disorder I kept a secret.

As for the family culture I am irrelevant to. Let’s just say when no one respects you or treats you with dignity or respects your relationships. It is easy to lash out! Sometimes the most infuriating thing is a family that does nothing about red-flags. I always shout… Like I did with Matthew Clarke! “IF YOU DON’T DEAL WITH THOSE RED FLAGS? I WILL DEAL WITH THEM MYSELF!” So I did that in 2020 after knowing Matt for 4 years at least. Why should he get to walk around tormenting everyone? This is a 1 sided agreement he has made with himself and no one else. I never said I liked Gay Jokes, I never said you could say Me Too stories have gone too far & I never said abuse your sister in front of me! I’m not your mother. So when I say “I dictated Ashley’s abuse to a Child Psychologist!” I mean everything associated with that. You see everyone behaving a certain way. You think I am going to guarantee that same behavior. However, you & I never set clear boundaries Step Brother to Step Brother. You must be going off of someone else’s words or your own affirmations. Without clarifying with me “Do you agree with your parents’ cultural philosophies?” The answer is plainly “No!” I don’t respect my elders, I don’t follow nihilism & I am a Wiccan EcoSocialist. I love my Dad & Mom but I can plainly state I don’t follow their word on everything. I am not going to be forever trying to get them on my same page.

One thing I have repeated to two partners. “The last thing I want is a man who plays God with my mental health.” AKA Autism wise. I have a God Complex. It is nothing personal but you can’t help me. You have missed the point, failed to acquire literature & jumped the gun! I have to examine this honestly & ask if someone trying to save my life is maybe acting out of self-interest. I don’t understand my self-worth so I can’t give you this answer. Self-worth is something we either inflate or deflate depending on who you ask. I can’t tell you why Kaylib Drury and Chris Rudan on separate occasions saved my life. I can just say they did it and notice the fact I can still breathe.

Relationships are not maintained on pointless one sided agreements. I couldn’t actualize the fact with my parents that Autism + ADHD under my conditions rarely had great success with complete independence. Through education and work that was a fact they chose to adamantly denied until recently. With regard to one sided agreement. Both parties have to consent to a shared vision or they are just jerking themselves off individually on self righteous moralism. In my case I couldn’t get my loving companions to say I should just die even though it felt better than forced independence. In Matt’s case, he can’t accept the unending duty to be a positive player in interpersonal relationships. It is just a burden he is stuck having to bare. This isn’t an argument of adulthood. Quite frankly on an autism forum you should find no such argument. (I have learned.) This is an argument of Matt Clarke & I never having actualized our interpersonal relationship.


Study Group with Dad.

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Hey guys,

I said I was going to try more. Meaning I am going to try & be as independent as possible. While also trying not to blame everyone for everything. I tend to lose sense of reality when over stressed & Dad is about to learn why. I am also going to learn something about him…

Dad is reviewing

Dear Dad, I spent the entire time I was homeless in Sensory Overload. I was screamed at, suffocated by a mask and abused by Homeless shelter staff in Kingston Ontario. This is no joke. Covid19 has meant the suspension of Accessibility rights & I was as shocked as maybe you are.

I am reviewing

The Autistic Art Teacher kid of an Engineer is supposed to review a bit of engineering. Before ultimately deciding on a preference for the Arts.

Why bottle blondes are insane?

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I have a brain injury problem that causes Autistic Ticks and Seizures. That is why I have always been crazy. I mean think about the implications of opting for the blonde hair color. Especially with blue eyes…. (I have Jewish friends) Yeah we are nuts!

For more on this crap…. Take a look at Blonde Jokes.

I saw Unhinged with my friend Felix on 2020-10-21. Normally other people on the spectrum don’t take you to see such insane movies! I was surprised at this choice. Given that by the end we were both paralyzed in fear. I don’t know why we did this to ourselves… It is just a movie about a rampaging Straight cisgender inferiority complex!


To the Handicapped Community. During Covid19 we’ve been removed…

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The fact of the matter is. I have been removed from family, my relationship and sanity. All as a result of this Covid19 Epidemic. I didn’t want this! This is going to leave hostility as a new permanent family feature in my life.


Life in Autistic Coronavirus Halfway house…

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Halfway house:

“A center for helping former drug addicts, prisoners, psychiatric patients, or others to adjust to life in general society.” Google

I fall under more of the “Psychiatric patient” variety. Although not by necessity… I am going to start giving myself permission to subtract my own emotional burdens. I tried working during the Pandemic, but I hit my head & had to manage seizures.

I tried to re-house for a few months after the Pandemic. I am still having mobility issues & coping with Autism + Concussion. Sometimes my Concussions cause Traumatic spells partially related to hypnosis & partially related to traumas. However, the answer is not throwing me in to Social Isolation. I am not blaming myself for this.

I need to start placing blame where it actually goes. Stop taking all the responsibility for everything. I didn’t give myself sexual trauma, my second cousin/ex Step brother did. I didn’t give myself my initial head trauma… Dad did that. That is the proper way to emotionally release this.

I am not a violent psychotic. I have had some weird family therapies & an unfortunate break up. I need to call that what it is… Kaylib Drury thought I was dying. Like a dying dog he threw me out so I could do it somewhere quietly. I tried to die in Amherstview Kaylib Drury.

I was trying to get to the love of my life… Then ask why he broke my heart? I got the damages to prove it… “Love spells must be real because I am still under Kaylib’s.”

I also collapsed on the ground & had a Seizure near Amherst Island. It was a beautiful hike though…

Well if you stopped following my channels you missed a very real Autistic suicide attempt during Covid19. It is okay though… I was made to self-destruct. I am an autistic person doing Emotional release therapies. I now have emotional repression seizures.


25 Steps to creative writing.

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I just recently found history knocking at my door & recognizing my genius. I now have to rise to the challenge as a writer & put down my autobiography to potentially teach someone more important how to write their own. I am Ashton Deroy, I am 27 and I recently declared my Psychotic disorder. As of recent I have decided to talk about the unannounced Simple servant Genius in Quinte West.

I have to write down 25 creative writing tips for an autobiography.

  1. Connect to your subconscious mind. Transcend in to the mental & Physical realm. Sometimes I also like to get stoned. I treat Autism Seizures.
  2. Decide what you believe in.
  3. What are you trying to say about yourself?
  4. What is your brand?
  5. Align your inner self with your outer self.
  6. Abandon reckless behaviours
  7. Ask your therapist for help.
  8. Talk to a Publicist.
  9. Find a TV show to refer to that has some of your inner truth. My truths were found in Ghost Whisperer.
  10. Ask yourself simple reasonable questions.
  11. Sometimes accept the middle ground as reality. Especially in arguments you haven’t settled.
  12. Don’t abandon yourself to destructive writing patterns.
  13. Use your mind gym to find positive visualization techniques.
  14. Know your rights as a writer
  15. Ask for help with Communication Skills ask Ashtonderoy@gmail.com .
  16. Purchase a copyright by submitting art work and a domain name.
  17. Listen to your gut
  18. Register threats to information being challenged.
  19. Be confident and calm
  20. Work through all anger in a healthy way.
  21. Make a mind gym. I encourage use of Audible.
  22. Keep a healthy self
  23. Get a trusted advisor. I used my Autistic Friend Diana Skye
  24. Check out the Silva mind control method.
  25. Write our challenge in words when you hit a word block.


Deroy, Ashton Joseph. ‚ÄúThe Way of the Seal.‚ÄĚ Audible, 19 June 2018, www.audible.ca/webplayer?asin=B07DKGPX9K&contentDeliveryType=Unknown&usePlayQueue=false&ref_=a_libraryItem_cloudplayer_B07DKGPX9K&cloudPlayerStartLoadTime=1601672412702.


Dear Family, I know I have Autism + Psychosis but hear me out. #MeToo

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This blog article highlights why you don’t ignore Special Ed Autistic people.

  1. Dear Family … Kyle is in trouble again!

2. Dear Family the Psychologist I am dating is nuts. I also don’t think he knows Wiccan means passionate Environmental Feminist & student of the arts.

3. Dear family I went through something so intense. I take Estrogen and marijuana to manage the resulting trauma from 2011.

4. Dear Family I was Queer bashed from 2007-2011 in High School.

5. Dear family was Queer bashed by religious relatives growing up.

6. Dear family I have never identified as man or woman.

7. Dear Family I see Dead people.

8. Dear Family if you make me homeless I will go to the worst shelter! I have C-PTSD.

9. Dear Family please help Kaylib. Taking care of my brain injury alone is too much pressure for one person to manage.

Dear Family on June 7th 2020 during the Corona Virus pandemic I had a workplace injury. I have to leak my secrets.


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Sorry, we are done. Not sorry I was with you… </3 End of relationship. Loading… Trying to get over my first real love.¬†


LGBT problems and Special Ed autistic gaslighting at home.

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Okay so guess who was empowered by me seeking mental health treatment when I explicitly didn’t ask for it? It was not me the sexual assault victim who bravely moved on. It was not me the victim of amnesia who can’t count on their family. It was my ex, it was my family and it was my old job.

In this essay I am going to outline the stuff I don’t want to talk about on a usual basis. This way people can understand that mental health is not a 1 size fits all solution. In fact if you look in to my record at Quinte Health where I see a counsellor usually, it actually wasn’t supposed to be the solution at all. Why wasn’t this the solution?


Self-Esteem Questionaire:

  1. Do you like yourself as you are? No, what has given me the reason to like myself as I am? The fact that I am smart. Yet my Dad still agreed to have me verify my sexual assault in his separation. The fact that every boyfriend I have ever had has taken control or insulted my mental health. Yet I just keep hoping to fall in love. Yep I am the damaged one. Barely functioning 5 ft 9 rape victim Ashton Deroy takes the blame again. I might of scared people including family & even Kaylib Drury. I will take full blame for that. Do they take full blame for what they do? The fact that there is no Multiculturalism in our family so I am sad. The fact that I am a target for argumentation and debate. Or the fact that I require help from family that I do not receive.
  2. Should people be relatively grateful to have me in their lives? This is what makes mental health such a dumb and worthless occupational field. People either demonstrate they appreciate having you around. Or they do what Liam Hennessy did the entire time I dated him and gaslight me, calling me crazy and screwed up! I was actually approached by Liam Hennessy and asked to charge a person he claimed sexually assaulted him. Even though I never had that same experience.
  3. This is me yesterday lost in my own mind and struggling to get family help in the rain.
  4. If I didn’t know me? I’d think I was okay. No I wouldn’t think I am okay. I am a gay bash victim, a victim of mental manipulations and a rape victim. If I didn’t know me… I would see me behaving how I do and according to popular opinions. I would think I was and I quote “Still fucked up!” Liam Hennessy in regards to special needs people. (By the way I have never called Liam Hennessy out for abusing me. The rush is exhilarating!”)
  5. Growing up was I given the feeling that I properly deserve to exist? Does your Step brother Shane Fraiser repeating the phrases “Sped!” , “Retard.” & “Kill yourself” count? Sarcasm (Entertainment for stupid people) >> If so I was totally given the right to exist.

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The only idea I would agree to traumatic anxiety wise. After gay bash, after rape and after manipulative torture. I need hugs but they aren’t going to be found anymore because Kaylib Drury left and he was the only person I wanted them from. I need to enjoy cake with my friends… Even though I have brutally transitioned by routine so many times I don’t know who they are anymore. I want to enjoy arts & culture with Ashley…¬† I don’t believe in a better future because I have never been shown properly the possibility of one.¬† The proof is in how I got mental help. I was dumped and had all my stuff moved to the Napanee Police. I had seizures in the rain yesterday and still wanted to talk to Kaylib Drury because I missed him.

I get my passive aggressiveness tested even though I said not to because if aggressiveness is triggered I won’t be able to stop it. So I try to be passive and nice hoping that someone will take that for what it is. The fact that I want to learn, love & be cared for. However, I keep getting told somehow… Some way!!! The answer is going to be in seeking psychological help. I am happy to be where I am because I no longer trust the people I am supposed to love.

I have no culture anymore… I have no home… I have no lighter… I have no weed… Why do you think I would choose this help willingly? I have nothing to go back to when I am done. Furthermore I am of the opinion that ODSP is a crutch for families who don’t want to better their financial wellbeing and force independence on self-identified interdependent autistic people with poor self-regulation. This isn’t the help I need. It is the help being forced on me. That is what my mental health professionals told me a long time ago when I self-submitted complex trauma . The End! Fuck everyone, at the end of this stay I am not going back to family, love or career. I am leaving….¬†





Why you can’t use God Complex in every argument? Special Education Aware.

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Dear Kimberly.

I shouldn’t have to say what I am saying. I shouldn’t have to declare what I do. A family in Quinte West Ontario Canada with people named Mary McGraw, Nicole Hill & Melissa Fraiser shouldn’t be practicing Eugenics. Arranging for the molestation and abuse of children to make them able to claim ODSP. Oh so are family is using an abusive neglect culture to screw people up and give them God Complexes! Yay!¬†

This time I am not intending for the use of Conspiracy Theory because it is not one. This is Autism Unfiltered, unchained, and 0 people around me speaking. Why is everyone so depressed? It is the simple psychological issue of being poorly treated and lying to each other for the purposes of manipulation.

Autism Aware Ashton Deroy Quinte West

So no I won’t be retracting these statements. They stay up. They stay up with the suffering and the pain of the worker. They stay up because I am a Socialist True believer who was given the impossible task of helping their mother. They stay up because I accept my new family culture. They stay up because I am breaking the mold that made me if that is what it is.

If my Mom asks me to choose between Nicole Hill & Mary McGraw or my new Mormon family. I think you know I am choosing the people with the boring moral back story. I think you know why. I want to be a pot-smoking artist with a teacher as a grandma. Not someone in a family without boundaries.


Ashton Deroy РNot screwed up. I am in fact the opposite with the condition of no empathy. #SpecialEducationAware #ProudToHaveMormonRelatives 


S&P Data don’t move a muscle. I declare Moral authority against you.

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Dear S&P Data,

I don’t care if gay pride is in your logo. It isn’t about that. Workers want control back from the client. If they don’t get it. This is a stick up the client’s ass!¬†

You can kiss my fucking ass!





About Mohawk Medibles Fentynal rumor

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I am Ashton Deroy, on the record, I attempted suicide at the following jobs!

Work to death Suicide

Introduction: We need workplace reform in Greater Napanee, Quinte West & Belleville Ontario. It isn’t a vote on matter, it isn’t a individual to company matter. It plainly is a moral dictation coming to be that companies are going to have to offer a higher standard of fairness for the workers. This isn’t a choice… It isn’t like “First three months, we can treat you however you want!” No…. You will lose your building and your lives with that logic. We are talking Green Socialism, we are talking global warming and finally it just doesn’t matter. The state of things as is bares no moral value Period…. We will expand on this over the next week.


Socialism In Quinte West, Belleville Ontario & Kingston Ontario. Who are our targets for protest?

Disclaimer I have autism+ concussion so screw what anyone thinks of this and screw any legal claims! I will have them dismissed on my most recent suicide attempt. I AM GOD! Take this as fact/fiction/fact/fiction/fact/fiction ! Oh, it doesn’t matter….. It is unfiltered free speech from insanity!¬†

Introduction: Capitalism has honestly gone on long enough. It is time for a Green Democratic Socialist movement to consume all areas of our life. I am saying this as a Mystical Socialist Dictator who is tired of the status quo! All the Businesses will be destroyed and the elite will pay with their LIVESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS & THEIR BRANDS!!! 

Affirmative action “in Quinte West will be the F*** you movement in regards to the capitalists of Telecom.”



Cyber Security Target list:

  1. S&P Data Quinte West Ontario – Harassing calls from a call center in Canada and protects Wal-Mart in Canada. They also are a pathetic employer that needs to GO DOWN!!!!!!!!!! YOU ABUSE YOUR WORKERS AND YOU DESERVE TO BE PUNISHED!¬† “
    “The worst place to work with and hopeless for your effort that what you put on the workplace and you may except the termination any time from them without proper pls don’t waste your time and ruin life with them.” Anton Emmanuel
  2. Team HGS Belleville Ontario – Deserves to be shut down with Workers’ protests and completely disrupted day today. If they try to leave Belleville Ontario we should make sure it isn’t a safe transition because how they have treated us is disgusting and tyrannical! “Go to school get a real career!” Mario Villano
  3. Giant TigerAccessibility Giant Tiger

4. StarTek Kingston

“5 years later. I still am angry with this company. You still chew people up like your personal bubble gum & spit them out. How dare you? How dare you demand so much of people’s lives. How dare you pay under the living wage! How dare you think you can hire my friends & mistreat them to!” Ashton Deroy

We demand real change! We demand workplace reform. This has been a gun people have been waiting for me to fire again for a long time! Well, I am firing the gun and declaring myself God!



The Vegan vs The Transgender inspiration.


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The debut of ASMR Ostrich


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Wal-Mart Napanee Human Rights Complaint Research.

“This moment in history with indigenous female genocide and a dying free expression calls for De-colonization.”


An affidavit is to be submitted signed and dated in the future, The share cost is $5 per share. A survey from receipt submitted anonymous employee testament. Disclosed this to Assistant Manager Steve 11:31 A.M. 2020-07-23. Research being compiled for purposes of Democratizing the workforce under Socialism which is protected as a Political ideology in Canada. 

Even though it has always been this way. Even though Wal-Mart has an organizational culture. I am about Social Democracy. I am about creating a positive Napanee Ontario culture. That includes free speech and free attire in the workplace. As per free expression laws outlined in our charter of rights and freedoms.

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Contest, www.KyleDeroy.ca and all my commentary on Kyle Deroy is on the line! $60 worth of domain and logo.

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Dear Readers,

we are doing an Animal Crossing Nintendo Switch contest. The game is to reconnect me and my brother on Animal Crossing. The Winner who gets us in the same town gets his domain and logo worth $60 of service. Details are on the website. 


Legal terms:

  • I reserve the right to decide the winner.¬†
  • I have set sketchy contest rules. I got a full 5 hours of sleep last night! Yay Giant Tiger! Brought to you by their workplace injury!¬†
  • I have autism + concussion so I am making up crazy sh**¬† as I go along,¬†




About Green in Napanee

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Our recent articles do not touch on the original intention for this Premium WordPress Website. The reason we posted this site was to start on a Green Socialist Revolution related to Autism-Revolution.ca¬†. There are also other issues I need to fix where I am living versus where I’ve been. Then I am also compiling research on a Landscaping web design venture that I will submit financial, marketing and communications details on later. This is just the beginning. Mission, “dawn an era of new Social Responsibility¬†and Sustainability.”¬†


Walking from Greater Napanee Downtown to Medibles Dispensary. 

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Copyrighting Giant Tiger Workplace Injury 

Ending the tyranny of the Retail Bourgois. 

Calling out Tim Hortons for Autism Discrimination – ”

I got an OPP escort to the restaurant because this was an emergency!!! Bob made sure to read me the riot act at 1:15p.m. 2020-07-07 while I was having a seizure. He denied me accessibility seating while I waited for my food as a paying Tim Hortons Customer. Bob hates the disabled and this is this restaurant’s first real hate crime against an autistic person with reflex seizures.”

Alright as of late we have had to deal with a spoiled brat and his unchecked anger click to read more below:

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Enough of the Autism Revolution!

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I demand recognition, obedience and absolute moral authority over my store! This isn’t Tyranny it is a fact of life! Sit down and be trained and then do as I say! I DEMAND IT! If you don’t like it I will call the police and direct you to contact the sharks in Giant Tiger‘s law department! You are emotionally tormenting me and it isn’t fair! I DON’T CARE IF YOU HOLD ME RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR CONCUSSION I WILL ARGUE MY VICTIMIZATION AS THE QUEEN!

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Funny story: “So like when Kyle was a kid, he used to climb on to roofs of abandoned buildings in Quinte West because he was a bad egg yo. He also used to use Grandma McGraw and Aunt Nicole against our mother. Just because he is an evil bastard who never owns up to it. Also Nicole Hill is a bad influence who married a man who sexually assaulted her children. Peace out girl scout! Also…. Mary McGraw is a bitchy buffalo.… Just saying!”

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3 people it pays to trust.

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I want to be apart of a community that helps each other shine. I want to be lifted up and lift others up as well. I want to help & be helped. That is the ultimate dream of any Community minded Democratic Socialist!

In this article I am taking a positive inventory of 3 people I benefit from having faith in.

Dad (Randy Deroy) – Naturally he goes in to this list. I don’t pay a steep cost for helping Dad. Actually mostly he has helped me so far but I have been trying to reconcile my finances and status to change that in the future. He also made multiple suggestions for me to join the army but we may have to forgive that because that was before my formal declaration of psychotic status.

Diana Skye – Diana did lead me to a more successful style of blogging. She also helped me moralize and rounded me out as a person. I think her and my relationship was more mutually beneficial than I gave it credit for once upon a time. There is always something about an empath that will balance out a narcissist. I (Ashton De Roy am a God Complex.) That is a Narcissistic Psychosis disorder.

Alana Skye – Due to Alana Skye’s help I can make a claim that my Homelessness was reckless endangerment. I needed a more reasonable supervision during my concussion and I was just not allowed to have that. I haven’t really helped her since Community College. As my functionality has been going down gradually since I took Advertising. This is due to a mix of employer abuse, unrealistic standards on independence & debt.

Listen there is no ideal world where I go to work, manage my finances and entire living situation with no help. There is no world where a public service fills in all of the gaps either. I have to have a support system at the end of the day. This is literally obvious to every other well adjusted learning disability. There is no iron independence in my Autism! Over the past few years I have looked at this over independence and over stress as something that would have to kill me or nearly kill me in order to prove my point. It has now nearly killed me!

Now can we start critically looking at Unfair employers like Jennifer Boutilier? Now can we stop holding Autism + ADHD to unrealistic standards for independence? Now can I be set up for success with aide? Rather than crushing failure with added stress.

3 Misunderstandings people had about my time Homeless.

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Everyone is more likely to think they completely know the steps for me to solve my own problems than they actually do. I am going to shock people with the truth about my homelessness. Maybe if you read this carefully. You will not make the same mistake with another Autistic person in the future?

  1. I am trained on how to self admit psychotic & declare myself leaving a situation of abuse – If you are the one thrown out on the street. You can declare yourself the victim of partner abuse. That is just a clich√©. The fact that Kaylib Drury actually did attempt to take control of my mental health without permission only added to this. Without that my claims would of been unsubstantiated. I said to Kaylib Drury and I quote “I do not want to go to the hospital alone.” I still don’t want to do this. I only did it to produce a record of reckless endangerment in Kingston Ontario & log some of my seizures with official hospital visits.
  2. People thought I wasn’t working with Social Workers or attempting to re-house myself- I was actually doing both. Social Workers in Kingston Ontario are F#*$*)# idiots. I think they are overrated overall! Also it is very difficult to re-home yourself as a disabled person on a fixed income. The only reason I was able to re-home myself in 2020 from the Nightmare in Kingston on Victoria street was because I was in a government subsidized work program & I had Kyle DeRoy’s moral assistance. I can both attempt to take care of my own needs and pick up a megaphone to insult/hold my family accountable for their stupid S#*($*#* I have been doing this for a long time!
  3. Being homeless is an experience that instills empathy – It does not! Homelessness is an experience that teaches you to fight! I can now fight at an insane level in any direction needed! Family is supposed to teach empathy. Failing that if you have a family of dimwits and psychotics you may just be s*** out of luck for picking up the proper use of empathy. Most of what people know about homelessness is marketing. I have deep dived in to the life of homeless people since my trip to North Bay in 2018. It is a lot less inspirational than you think.

Sorry I couldn’t give you idiots what you wanted from the experience. Mom might think it might of made me empathetic to what she went through after Kyle DeRoy left her. It did not Mom… You alienated yourself at the time by tormenting everyone around you with your OCD Dictatorship. Other people may of thought it would make me independent or more reliant on Public Services. To that I say no… I am Interdependent and I think our Public & Social Services are a joke for Disabled people who suffered Child abuse. Mostly all they do is teach us to suffer in silence. Something that I will never do!

Ashton De Roy’s Dirty Little Secret.

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If I start playing the bad guy in any argument. It is an argument I am not taking seriously and I just want to be left alone. We entitle ourselves to too much of each other sometimes. We need to take 10 steps back and stop. My special skills is the ability to fail forward fast. I am not afraid to look so crazy that a dispute with me appears pointless. I am not afraid of breaking social norms or highlighting unflattering norms. This is an Autistic super power!

Even when Rachel Pasternak sent all the unflattering things I said to her to a Student Conduct officer at Seneca College. I wasn’t afraid to tell the truth. I said it like it was… “I was drunk & watching cartoons.” A truly dangerous person isn’t a perfectionist. It is someone who messes up, apologizes & knows very well they will mess up again later in similar fashion.

The truly dangerous people just try. Even after a failure.