I don’t see anything wrong with being a pessimist. I really am not all that invested in the uphill battle. Frequently when I write? I talk about my rejection of life in the Military. One of the reasons is, I don’t think it should have to be that hard to save my life. If it is, then my life isn’t worth saving!
An Autistic Concussion is a Psychotic condition. Ashton Deroy is Autistic, Queer and struggling. During the early part of my Concussion I committed betrayal, fought for my insanity and struggled with improper accommodation. Why did I do these things?
Honestly going through a Concussion during a Pandemic makes it impossible to ignore the pain, the struggle and the termination of relationships. I try to silence the memories with audiobooks when I can. Or I use exercise. Both only work for so long.
This is going to sound insane but I mentioned marriage to my recent ex many times after the Concussion. This is kind of bleak but it is coded in my mind out of a kind of fear. “I love you and I feel like I might die with you.”/ AKA till death do us part. This is worth knowing for if it ever happens again. When I wasn’t convincing myself I was invincible? I was convinced I was going to die after the June 7th – 8th concussion.
Like Ashton De Roy on Facebook French: J’ai une commotion cérébrale / I have a concussion / 脑震荡 Any time I think of 2020 for the rest of my life. I will think of the wild ride of a Giant Tiger workplace concussion and full on psychosis. A psychosis that hurt many people including anContinue reading “2020, the year I felt the wrath of an autistic Concussion. I am sorry!”
Like Ashton De Roy on Facebook I hope over time this blog will serve more as a check & balance. Less of a Dictatorship on a website. I am capable of achieving & crashing. Inspiring and scaring. I can dazzle some and terrify others. This is life with an Autistic Psychotic Disorder. Let’s start anContinue reading “New mission Statement”
I want to be apart of a community that helps each other shine. I want to be lifted up and lift others up as well. I want to help & be helped. That is the ultimate dream of any Community minded Democratic Socialist!
I saw Unhinged with my friend Felix on 2020-10-21. Normally other people on the spectrum don’t take you to see such insane movies! I was surprised at this choice. Given that by the end we were both paralyzed in fear. I don’t know why we did this to ourselves… It is just a movie about a rampaging Straight cisgender inferiority complex!
I still trust Mohawk Medibles with my life! The Fentynal rumor has to be false…