Manipulation & Social gamesmanship is my only culture.

Like Ashton Deroy on Facebook There is nothing else here… My parents didn’t select a morality when I was a kid. Just Obsessive Compulsive Abuse on both sides! I was denied conventional Autism therapies in the home (Which automatically makes everywhere I lived abusive.) There is nothing else here! I annoy people, I play tricksContinue reading “Manipulation & Social gamesmanship is my only culture.”

The shortfall of One sided agreements.

“You have to let me kill myself if I think my time is up.” An actual chilling sentence I have told 2 ex-boyfriends. This was a 1 sided agreement.

It took me a while to realize. People who love you? No matter how flawed they are will never agree to this.

Study Group with Dad.

I said I was going to try more. Meaning I am going to try & be as independent as possible. While also trying not to blame everyone for everything. I tend to lose sense of reality when over stressed & Dad is about to learn why. I am also going to learn something about him…

2020-10-27 Psychotic Genius

I suppose I am not smart enough to fix my own homelessness during a Depression . I am smart enough to realize a Business Diploma can fix mathematic illiteracy.

I am smart enough to fix psychological family problems. I am smart enough to realize I am being manipulated & abused again!

Why bottle blondes are insane?

I saw Unhinged with my friend Felix on 2020-10-21. Normally other people on the spectrum don’t take you to see such insane movies! I was surprised at this choice. Given that by the end we were both paralyzed in fear. I don’t know why we did this to ourselves… It is just a movie about a rampaging Straight cisgender inferiority complex!

Life in Autistic Coronavirus Halfway house…

“A center for helping former drug addicts, prisoners, psychiatric patients, or others to adjust to life in general society.” Google

I fall under more of the “Psychiatric patient” variety. Although not by necessity… I am going to start giving myself permission to subtract my own emotional burdens. I tried working during the Pandemic, but I hit my head & had to manage seizures.

Remove hypnotic Suggestions from Ashton Deroy in 5 steps.

Ashton De Roy is a De-Colonized Art Teacher & a Wicca of self-guided practice. Ashton De Roy is a Political & Economics theorist. Not a soldier… Not a person with limitless potential. Rather a person when faced with ambition? Develops existential & social hostility. Ashton De Roy is a firm believer in honesty & the idea the world needs idiots to.

” I will not practice unconsenting hypnosis.” , “I will protect my truths but not your own.” & “I will be irredeemably upset if I come to and I break my own hypnotic spell alone.”



When to De-colonize?

People often wondered when I would De-colonize my name? I mean this is why I went to the Tim Hortons Camp in Quebec in elementary school after all.

Well the truth is my name was always a source of pride. I mean I am the Autistic kid of an Engineer.