Striving to function again.

Like Ashton Deroy on Facebook Clichés that annoy me: “Be the best you can be. ” If I am not jumping over furniture to attack someone. I am probably close to my peek here… “Don’t value yourself on the judgment of others.” This cliché just invites a God complex. “Take the time to think aboutContinue reading “Striving to function again.”

Some of the Homelessness discussion with the Green Party of Ontario Zoom meeting.

Summary of meeting: During the Zoom meeting Panelists discussed challenges around support an adult son with autism, Leigh discussed supported people with Mental Health & addictions challenges. There was a brief interaction in the meeting with Isabelle Gemk who shared her blogging work as POOF, Protecting ODSP OW Funding. Debbie Pike shared an estimate of 11 people dying in Belleville Ontario from reasons related to homelessness.

Life with a disability is just hardship.

I don’t see anything wrong with being a pessimist. I really am not all that invested in the uphill battle. Frequently when I write? I talk about my rejection of life in the Military. One of the reasons is, I don’t think it should have to be that hard to save my life. If it is, then my life isn’t worth saving!

If our lives had 1 climax. My story would be done.

An Autistic Concussion is a Psychotic condition. Ashton Deroy is Autistic, Queer and struggling. During the early part of my Concussion I committed betrayal, fought for my insanity and struggled with improper accommodation. Why did I do these things?

Honestly going through a Concussion during a Pandemic makes it impossible to ignore the pain, the struggle and the termination of relationships. I try to silence the memories with audiobooks when I can. Or I use exercise. Both only work for so long.

Why I can’t write my autobiography?

I can’t write my autobiography or Diagnose my own psychological problems. This is despite the self-proclaimed name of Dr. Ostrich. I can not hide a Mental illness under a poorly constructed God Complex. I can’t denied the fact that as I declare myself god after a concussion. That I have clearly gone insane.

I was born in the Greater Toronto area. I went to School in Belleville, then Brighton & then college in Belleville. Then I went to college in Kingston. Then I went to College in North York. All to be a web design and communications major with a Business Diploma. (Why I studied Communications & Business?) I didn’t know how to function. I am still working on that…

Why I mentioned marriage during head injury psychosis?

This is going to sound insane but I mentioned marriage to my recent ex many times after the Concussion. This is kind of bleak but it is coded in my mind out of a kind of fear. “I love you and I feel like I might die with you.”/ AKA till death do us part. This is worth knowing for if it ever happens again. When I wasn’t convincing myself I was invincible? I was convinced I was going to die after the June 7th – 8th concussion.

I have attachment issues

If I have sent this to you and we are dating. It is time to talk about Autistic Attachment problems as this may be something you have to deal with.

I would not send this unless deep feelings have developed. If we are at a point where deep feelings have developed then it is essential I tell you this.

Still living in Social Isolation and starting to prefer it.

On 2020-12-09 I am still living in Social Isolation but it is starting to become a preferred situation.

Ben Shapiro is gay.

This really isn’t funny to me anymore and I am through being tolerant and politically correct about this idiot. Why does anyone care so much as Ben Shapiro does about a man wearing a dress? He is a repressed Conservative gay man with a daddy fetish. Western Civilization doesn’t fall because men embrace femininity.