If our lives had 1 climax. My story would be done.

An Autistic Concussion is a Psychotic condition. Ashton Deroy is Autistic, Queer and struggling. During the early part of my Concussion I committed betrayal, fought for my insanity and struggled with improper accommodation. Why did I do these things?

Honestly going through a Concussion during a Pandemic makes it impossible to ignore the pain, the struggle and the termination of relationships. I try to silence the memories with audiobooks when I can. Or I use exercise. Both only work for so long.

Why I can’t write my autobiography?

I can’t write my autobiography or Diagnose my own psychological problems. This is despite the self-proclaimed name of Dr. Ostrich. I can not hide a Mental illness under a poorly constructed God Complex. I can’t denied the fact that as I declare myself god after a concussion. That I have clearly gone insane.

I was born in the Greater Toronto area. I went to School in Belleville, then Brighton & then college in Belleville. Then I went to college in Kingston. Then I went to College in North York. All to be a web design and communications major with a Business Diploma. (Why I studied Communications & Business?) I didn’t know how to function. I am still working on that…

Why I mentioned marriage during head injury psychosis?

This is going to sound insane but I mentioned marriage to my recent ex many times after the Concussion. This is kind of bleak but it is coded in my mind out of a kind of fear. “I love you and I feel like I might die with you.”/ AKA till death do us part. This is worth knowing for if it ever happens again. When I wasn’t convincing myself I was invincible? I was convinced I was going to die after the June 7th – 8th concussion.

I have attachment issues

If I have sent this to you and we are dating. It is time to talk about Autistic Attachment problems as this may be something you have to deal with.

I would not send this unless deep feelings have developed. If we are at a point where deep feelings have developed then it is essential I tell you this.

Still living in Social Isolation and starting to prefer it.

On 2020-12-09 I am still living in Social Isolation but it is starting to become a preferred situation.

Ben Shapiro is gay.

This really isn’t funny to me anymore and I am through being tolerant and politically correct about this idiot. Why does anyone care so much as Ben Shapiro does about a man wearing a dress? He is a repressed Conservative gay man with a daddy fetish. Western Civilization doesn’t fall because men embrace femininity.

Why bottle blondes are insane?

I saw Unhinged with my friend Felix on 2020-10-21. Normally other people on the spectrum don’t take you to see such insane movies! I was surprised at this choice. Given that by the end we were both paralyzed in fear. I don’t know why we did this to ourselves… It is just a movie about a rampaging Straight cisgender inferiority complex!

Remove hypnotic Suggestions from Ashton Deroy in 5 steps.

Ashton De Roy is a De-Colonized Art Teacher & a Wicca of self-guided practice. Ashton De Roy is a Political & Economics theorist. Not a soldier… Not a person with limitless potential. Rather a person when faced with ambition? Develops existential & social hostility. Ashton De Roy is a firm believer in honesty & the idea the world needs idiots to.

” I will not practice unconsenting hypnosis.” , “I will protect my truths but not your own.” & “I will be irredeemably upset if I come to and I break my own hypnotic spell alone.”



How Autistic Special Needs becomes Rage Addiction?

This is not a normal Autistic Special Needs Mutation. It just happened to me this way. Psychologically though you might be interested in how my autistic personality mutated in to Special Needs Rage addiction? Everyone around me is making Social normalcy arguments 24/7. Meanwhile I am just sitting here… I am not normal… I have a psychotic disorder… I am just trying not to punch my step sibling Matt for making another gay joke! (Matt Clarke is really intelligent. He lacks social skills from a poor family cultural background… This was pointed out to me At Loyalist College in 2020.)