Letters for sanity

These are being written to the expense of everyone else’s impunity. I was never granted my own impunity. So why should they be granted their impunity? It is pathetic that I was never allowed to fight back. Like the autism aware fighting back is somehow the end of the world. Let’s see why they all thought that way. My truths are in their lies by omission.

Ben Shapiro is gay.

This really isn’t funny to me anymore and I am through being tolerant and politically correct about this idiot. Why does anyone care so much as Ben Shapiro does about a man wearing a dress? He is a repressed Conservative gay man with a daddy fetish. Western Civilization doesn’t fall because men embrace femininity.

A Job I’ve done well as an Autistic Person.

A job where I felt proud of myself, happy and genuinely fulfilled in my lifetime was 10 Fitness in Quinte West. However, I did receive special accommodation from my Dad with shelter, transportation & assistance in Socializing. During this time I started dating Kaylib Drury. I was training in MMA. It was genuinely one of the happiest times in my life. Although since the concussion I don’t feel comfortable working right now. I intend to go back to 10 Fitness as a customer after the Pandemic Lockdown eases. I pray for this Gym’s survival as it is an asset to our communities.

I am directionless.

This is all directionless. This blog is directionless, my content is directionless & my life is directionless. That is okay. The only people who don’t think being directionless is okay are the over ambitious psychotics that run the economy. This will do nothing to change me, my family & my career track.

Radical Honesty. I am Psychotic!

“I have no other honesty or enlightening journey to give you from my experience being homeless! Or my Suicide prevention in Safe Beds Kingston Ontario. I am Psychotic and that is my only meaningful truth. It doesn’t make me happy. It won’t lead to a long life. I won’t have happy relationships. I will have fleeting love. I am okay with this. I have no other option. I don’t believe this is a mind over matter issue at the end of the day.” Ashton De Roy

Dear Gary Hall. I am in love with another….

I had the briefest crush on Gary Hall in High School. I didn’t anticipate him attempting to jump my bone in the middle of an Undue Hardship issue! An issue where Kaylib Drury magically disappeared. No something has been wrong this entire time I have been talking to him.

Anti-Fascist = Bully & Victim

Like Ashton Deroy on Facebook Now that I am done with another experiment of getting drunk on equality & blaming my parents for everything. Time to switch to the Anti-Fascist side of my personality as a Wiccan. I am not just a victim nor am I just a bully. I am both. How you canContinue reading “Anti-Fascist = Bully & Victim”

Parental Report card. F is for go F*ck yourself

It all sounds hilarious, but the Psychotic disorder is real! 🙂 Am I still mad at my parents? No not really. I’ve put Matthew Clarke in a Dystopic reality where if he calls the Police on his Psychosis suffering sister. He could be the one charged. I proved he shows an abusive pattern based on Psychotherapy skills I inherited from Special Ed. I’ve taught feminism to other Special Eds & Self-defense to others. I give 0 F*CKS. I mean there is an extremely likely chance I kill myself one day suffering with traumatic flashbacks, but I am trying my hardest not to! 😀

Manipulation & Social gamesmanship is my only culture.

Like Ashton Deroy on Facebook There is nothing else here… My parents didn’t select a morality when I was a kid. Just Obsessive Compulsive Abuse on both sides! I was denied conventional Autism therapies in the home (Which automatically makes everywhere I lived abusive.) There is nothing else here! I annoy people, I play tricksContinue reading “Manipulation & Social gamesmanship is my only culture.”

The shortfall of One sided agreements.

“You have to let me kill myself if I think my time is up.” An actual chilling sentence I have told 2 ex-boyfriends. This was a 1 sided agreement.

It took me a while to realize. People who love you? No matter how flawed they are will never agree to this.