I don’t see anything wrong with being a pessimist. I really am not all that invested in the uphill battle. Frequently when I write? I talk about my rejection of life in the Military. One of the reasons is, I don’t think it should have to be that hard to save my life. If it is, then my life isn’t worth saving!
An Autistic Concussion is a Psychotic condition. Ashton Deroy is Autistic, Queer and struggling. During the early part of my Concussion I committed betrayal, fought for my insanity and struggled with improper accommodation. Why did I do these things?
Honestly going through a Concussion during a Pandemic makes it impossible to ignore the pain, the struggle and the termination of relationships. I try to silence the memories with audiobooks when I can. Or I use exercise. Both only work for so long.
In Canada everyone is either pre-pissed off about Justin Trudeau’s Great Reset. Or they have the opinion of “Come on already, let’s just get this going!” How can Belleville Ontario build back better? How do we address inequality, climate change & extreme poverty. What can we do to build a town that works better for everyone?
There is a genocide happening in North Korea in relation to the disabled people in North Korea. I think this is tragic and sad! According to the Voice of North Korea they test Chemical weapons on disabled people in North Korea.
I can’t write my autobiography or Diagnose my own psychological problems. This is despite the self-proclaimed name of Dr. Ostrich. I can not hide a Mental illness under a poorly constructed God Complex. I can’t denied the fact that as I declare myself god after a concussion. That I have clearly gone insane.
I was born in the Greater Toronto area. I went to School in Belleville, then Brighton & then college in Belleville. Then I went to college in Kingston. Then I went to College in North York. All to be a web design and communications major with a Business Diploma. (Why I studied Communications & Business?) I didn’t know how to function. I am still working on that…
This is going to sound insane but I mentioned marriage to my recent ex many times after the Concussion. This is kind of bleak but it is coded in my mind out of a kind of fear. “I love you and I feel like I might die with you.”/ AKA till death do us part. This is worth knowing for if it ever happens again. When I wasn’t convincing myself I was invincible? I was convinced I was going to die after the June 7th – 8th concussion.
Like Ashton De Roy on Facebook French: J’ai une commotion cérébrale / I have a concussion / 脑震荡 Any time I think of 2020 for the rest of my life. I will think of the wild ride of a Giant Tiger workplace concussion and full on psychosis. A psychosis that hurt many people including anContinue reading “2020, the year I felt the wrath of an autistic Concussion. I am sorry!”
If I have sent this to you and we are dating. It is time to talk about Autistic Attachment problems as this may be something you have to deal with.
I would not send this unless deep feelings have developed. If we are at a point where deep feelings have developed then it is essential I tell you this.
Like Ashton De Roy on Facebook I hope over time this blog will serve more as a check & balance. Less of a Dictatorship on a website. I am capable of achieving & crashing. Inspiring and scaring. I can dazzle some and terrify others. This is life with an Autistic Psychotic Disorder. Let’s start anContinue reading “New mission Statement”
I want to be apart of a community that helps each other shine. I want to be lifted up and lift others up as well. I want to help & be helped. That is the ultimate dream of any Community minded Democratic Socialist!