Like Ashton Deroy on Facebook Clichés that annoy me: “Be the best you can be. ” If I am not jumping over furniture to attack someone. I am probably close to my peek here… “Don’t value yourself on the judgment of others.” This cliché just invites a God complex. “Take the time to think aboutContinue reading “Striving to function again.”
I don’t see anything wrong with being a pessimist. I really am not all that invested in the uphill battle. Frequently when I write? I talk about my rejection of life in the Military. One of the reasons is, I don’t think it should have to be that hard to save my life. If it is, then my life isn’t worth saving!
An Autistic Concussion is a Psychotic condition. Ashton Deroy is Autistic, Queer and struggling. During the early part of my Concussion I committed betrayal, fought for my insanity and struggled with improper accommodation. Why did I do these things?
Honestly going through a Concussion during a Pandemic makes it impossible to ignore the pain, the struggle and the termination of relationships. I try to silence the memories with audiobooks when I can. Or I use exercise. Both only work for so long.
In Canada everyone is either pre-pissed off about Justin Trudeau’s Great Reset. Or they have the opinion of “Come on already, let’s just get this going!” How can Belleville Ontario build back better? How do we address inequality, climate change & extreme poverty. What can we do to build a town that works better for everyone?
This is going to sound insane but I mentioned marriage to my recent ex many times after the Concussion. This is kind of bleak but it is coded in my mind out of a kind of fear. “I love you and I feel like I might die with you.”/ AKA till death do us part. This is worth knowing for if it ever happens again. When I wasn’t convincing myself I was invincible? I was convinced I was going to die after the June 7th – 8th concussion.
Like Ashton De Roy on Facebook French: J’ai une commotion cérébrale / I have a concussion / 脑震荡 Any time I think of 2020 for the rest of my life. I will think of the wild ride of a Giant Tiger workplace concussion and full on psychosis. A psychosis that hurt many people including anContinue reading “2020, the year I felt the wrath of an autistic Concussion. I am sorry!”
If I have sent this to you and we are dating. It is time to talk about Autistic Attachment problems as this may be something you have to deal with.
I would not send this unless deep feelings have developed. If we are at a point where deep feelings have developed then it is essential I tell you this.
On 2020-12-09 I am still living in Social Isolation but it is starting to become a preferred situation.
Ashton De Roy Confesses to being not afraid to be embarrassing, Not afraid to highlight unflattering nrms & reducing arguments to pointless disputes.
This is not a normal Autistic Special Needs Mutation. It just happened to me this way. Psychologically though you might be interested in how my autistic personality mutated in to Special Needs Rage addiction? Everyone around me is making Social normalcy arguments 24/7. Meanwhile I am just sitting here… I am not normal… I have a psychotic disorder… I am just trying not to punch my step sibling Matt for making another gay joke! (Matt Clarke is really intelligent. He lacks social skills from a poor family cultural background… This was pointed out to me At Loyalist College in 2020.)